I've been asking myself questions. Is it me?? Is my expectation too high?? Or getting higher?? I try to find alternatives.. I try to find reasons on how u think n how u behave.. But sadly nothing came into my mind.
And like always I end up shutting myself and creating these walls again to protect myself.
After 7 years of marriage, I realise that the way we think are totally opposite one another. And everyday anxiety creep up on me. With questions like can we survive?? Is it enough?? Are my kids happy n safe??
I start to make my own plans without u in it. I started to prioritise my babies n my dreams and not you.
Everything changes when u start mistreating the kids. Everything changes when I see n feel that my kids were treated unfairly. I start to plan for my future with my kids.
Everything changes when u become more thrifty n stingy and always keep saying that it is not enough.
My sleepless night thinking what will happen to me n my kids.. Can we survive financially.. My brains start working again making me having a restless night.
Maybe I think too much.. Maybe I oversee things too much.. Maybe I'm too sensitive. This is all the maybes that been running through my head day and night. Just maybe..
But what if its not me but its you..???
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