Thursday 22 march 2018 11.19pm

Assalamualaikum...

Today I went to see a homepathy with mum Fathin n Wan.. Recommended by my sis Zati and her MIL.. Fathin did not attend school for at least 2 months plus. And things were getting frustrated. This was my last chance to make my daughter go to school..
Apparently the prof says that due to Fathin low red blood cells, she turns out the way she is now.. her depression anxiety attacks chestpain sleepless night migraines and all that she is going thru alone.. the suicidal thoughts the bad dreams that my baby girl has to go thru alone and no one else understand.. prof say not to worry.. with the homepathy medicines hopefully Fathin recovers back her health and start going to school.. In Shaa Allah.
I too ask for help from the homepathy doctor. Abt my smoking habits n my gastric pain.. from what i told him he diagnosed my pain my illness that im going thru. And hopefully after eating these medicines i will be able to fast again.
In some point of life, everyone in this world go thru a moment in life in pain or suffering or problems that no one else can understand.. but if we gv up now we absolutely wont find any solutions to whatever problem we have. Always find help in whatever ways that u are able to find. Nvr gv up of finding solutions to your problem.. and to all muslims brothers and sister nvr ever stop praying and ask the Almighty for help and guidance. *(self reminder to myself actually)* because when you ask Allah for help n guidance he will show you the way or maybe he sent someone else to help you find the way..
If theres a will theres always a way.. In Shaa Allah.. so to end my log for today i wish that all of us will always try to be a better person that who we are yesterday..
Thats all for now.. Gd night love..

Saturday 17 March 2018 3.09am

You are always in my dreams.. You came when i was least expecting it.. When i almost forget abt you, you come and haunt me.. Who are you and where are you are the questions that i kept asking.. I know its just a dream but u keep coming to my dreams that makes me difficult to forget u.
I know it wrong to think abt u.. but i cant help myself..
In my dreams, You hold my hand n tell me everything gonna be alright. It feels so real. But sadly i can see everything else so clearly except ur face.
Am i falling in love with the guy in my dreams?? Every time that question came to my mind i snap back to reality..  but i know that you already taken my heart.

So whoever you are and where ever you are mysterious dream man, if you are a real person somewhere out there i pray that you stay healthy and happy always.